Esoteric Secrecy

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about secrecy, privacy, and mystery in the context of the occult and esoteric religion. These three concepts come up a lot, from oaths of secrecy, secret societies, hidden mysteries, and so on. Let’s start by making some distinctions between those terms.

Secrecy is the act of not sharing information you have and others don’t. Some examples are the signs of recognition in Freemasonry and other secret societies, not revealing the name of your initiator, or not sharing your membership in¬†a particular order.

Privacy is about not sharing information you have, but other people also have it, or can reasonably assume it. What you do in the bathroom isn’t a secret, everybody knows what you’re doing, but we don’t share the details because it’s private.

Mystery is something that can’t be told, only experienced. We say that the Eucharist is a mystery, and I think that’s pretty apt. We can talk about the Eucharist all day long, but it’s the experience of it that can’t be relayed through a website or book. Of course, I might be biased ūüėČ

There was a time when it was very important for people who studied esoteric subjects¬†to¬†keep their interests a secret, but those days are largely gone. As a result, I believe most people think of secrecy in the occult more along the lines of privacy these days. It’s unlikely, in¬†most places, that you would lose your job for your esoteric beliefs, but there¬†could still certainly be social repercussions, and for that reason alone, sometimes leaving things unsaid is still a useful strategy. Of course, I believe there are also some things in ceremonial magic that can be psychologically and ontologically dangerous, and keeping those teachings for more advanced students is also prudent, but I’m not sure if actual damage from this is all that common. But your mileage may vary.

To paraphrase Dion Fortune, the real secrets of the occult can’t be told, they can only be experienced. In other words, mystery. For many, this is how secrecy is actually experienced in esoteric orders, and I think there’s some real value in this approach. There isn’t a lot of occult knowledge that you can’t find in¬†a few minutes of searching, but what good is reading a book of magic without¬†picking up a candle and actually doing it? You can read about the benefits of meditation for the rest of your life, but you won’t have any grasp of¬†it at all until you sit many hours in silence.

Of course, I’m a Gnostic, and not just a regular Gnostic, but one of those really deviant, hard-core, world-hating dualist kind (I’m only half kidding). As a Gnostic, I see another use for esoteric secrecy that I haven’t seen a lot of people talking about. If we take the Gnostic worldview seriously (and definitely if we take it literally), then there are forces at work in the world whose job it is to, at best, maintain the status quo, or at worst, forcefully preventing us from achieving our divine potential. These forces operate on a different level of “reality” than our normal consciousness, and as such, if we are to transcend their influence, we need to change how we¬†interact with the mundane world.¬†We literally need to do things differently than we are used to doing them. I propose one way to do that¬†is to strategically use secrecy as a magical¬†act in and of itself.

This idea isn’t yet fully formed, but the seed is there. What I’m thinking is that, as a ritual act of defiance against the rulers of this world, that we can use the tools of secrecy, privacy, and mystery to shield our actions from the demiurge and his minions. Online encryption, codes, secret signs of recognition, liturgy and ritual, or just plain keeping your mouth shut about some important things, these are just some of the ideas I’ve had on this so far. Talking about esoteric subjects online with your religion nerd friends? Try using PGP to encrypt your emails. Having coffee with your initiator?¬†Do a quick warding ritual. Just remember what the sphinx does: Know, Will, Dare, and Keep Silent.

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There will be more to come on this I’m sure, but these are just my opening thoughts. Of course, like many ritual acts, these are more to work on our own consciousness than on the spirit world, but every time you do a small ritual act to make yourself more self-aware, this has a profound cumulative effect. If you try any of this out I would love to hear from you! Leave your thoughts in the comments below.

Johannite Conclave 2016

I always have such a great time at my church’s annual Conclave. It’s historically been a gathering for the clergy to learn new things, share what’s working in the parishes, and recharge our batteries a bit. Conferences are always good for reminding us what made us excited about a thing to begin with, and Conclave is no exception. In the last several years, however, more and more laity have been attending Conclave, and it’s been a real infusion of energy and new ideas into it.

I’m very proud of the Johannite Church’s commitment to its members. We try really hard to make sure that the work we’re doing as a community benefits people in the real world, and not just online. Both parts are important, but, in my opinion, nothing beats coming together as a religious family and actually talking face to face. I actually miss active ministry quite a bit. Since Saint Martin’s Parish in NYC closed, I haven’t said mass in public outside of Conclave and a few times filling in for Fr. Donald at St. Sarah’s. There’s something very special about participating in the mass, and since the work Bishop Mansfield and Rev. Mr. Stewart have been doing on Temple Theology, the eucharist has taken on an even more profound significance.

Anyway, I’m excited to see where that work goes, but in the meantime, I made a vlog while at Conclave, and I hope it gives you an idea of what it’s like to attend. Maybe you’d like to join us next year in Denver!

I Am Not Forming an Open Source Order of Martinists…

…but if I were, it would be a network of Free Initiators that would be searchable via a central web hub. This list could be searchable by location, lineage, reviews, and maybe some other criteria. Potential members can message initiators to see if they will take them on as new initiates. Initiators would be able to communicate privately amongst themselves to discuss relevant things. Initiations would still take place in-person. No distance or self-initiations would be allowed. There would be certain landmarks that all Initiators in the OSOM would agree to.

The teachings would be centralized and standardized, but changes can be made by consensus. As initiations happen, the new initiates can be granted password-protected access to the teaching materials relevant to that degree. The Initiator will be responsible for the progress of the initiate, and the initiate will have a chance to review the Initiator publicly, but the Initiators would be able to appeal bad reviews to the other Initiators, who could remove bad reviews if warranted.

It would be open source, in that no Initiators would be obligated to follow any particular rules other than the landmarks. All of the teachings can be modified and updated based on new information and work by initiates. Initiates can come and go as they please, and the relationships between Initiator and initiate are not tied to the OSOM. Initiates may choose to come together in formal lodges or orders and still take part in the OSOM system. Existing lodges and orders can also make use of the system.

I am not an I::: L::: and I have no intentions of making this happen. I don’t have the time or web development skills. If you do have either or both of those and the desire to see something like this exist in the world, I wish you good luck and please keep me apprised of your efforts.

Lucid Dreaming and Awakening – Part 1

Do you have lucid dreams? Tell us about it in the comments!You’ve probably heard of lucid dreaming, but if you haven’t, it’s the act of consciously affecting your dreams. in other words, you’re aware that you are dreaming, and you can affect the dream¬†environment. Some people treat this as nothing more than a novelty, but a lot of people who do this do so with the intent of spiritual advancement.

I’ve not had any real success with it myself, but I’ve read, in a number of diverse places,¬†about¬†a technique that is supposedly very effective. It involves building up a habit while you’re awake that you can trigger when in a dream. The most common method I’ve seen is what I call the “door check-in.”

To do the door check-in, you must become aware of yourself every time you walk through a door. When you walk through the door you touch the door jam and ask yourself “Am I dreaming?” Ignoring, for the moment, the Gnostic implications of that question, which can have profound contemplative value in themselves. When you ask the question, take a¬†thorough¬†inventory of the sensations you are¬†experiencing and the thoughts you are having. Are you hot, cold, just right? How does the weight of your clothing feel against your body? What were you thinking about just now? Force yourself to become fully aware and conscious in that moment, and do that every time you walk through a door.

Eventually (so I’m told) you will come to a point in your dream when you walk through a door. You will, because of the habits developed, become aware of yourself, and when you ask yourself if you are dreaming, you will find the answer to be yes. At that point you will be able to take control of your dream.

What you do with that will be the subject of a future post. Let me know if you have any success with this.

Photo credit: Dream Wallpaper by ~ZokiDizajn


Count to Ten

I’ve been working with a practice for the last several months that is really kicking my butt. It comes from Josephine McCarthy’s book¬†Magical Knowledge Book I Foundations. It’s the very first exercise in the book, and it seems so simple, but it’s really not.

This practice is fundamentally different from the practices I put in my book, because it has a very specific end goal in mind. You¬†can¬†fail at this practice. In fact, you will, probably for weeks, if not months of steady work. I’ve only succeeded a few times. However, if you’re looking for a practice that will help you to really kick your spiritual development into high gear, this is the place to start.

I will¬†briefly¬†describe the practice here, but I also recommend that you buy the book. It’s especially useful for those interested in the esoteric path, but it has a decidedly mystical feel to it as well.

The basic practice is to close your eyes and count each breath until you get to ten. The challenge is to do it without being distracted by either inner or outer stimuli. If, in your counting, you have a stray¬†thought, you need to start over. If hear a car go by and you take note of it, start over. If you get to 7 and you get excited that you’ve almost made it, start over. This practice is a harsh task-master, if you are honest enough with yourself to let it work. Only you will know if it’s working, so you have to be brutally honest with yourself, or the whole thing is pointless.

This practice builds towards an entire system of esoteric work in McCarthy’s book, but this practice, as part of a Gnostic practice, can really polish that mirror so the Light can shine.¬†Give it a try! I like to set a timer for 20 minutes. Any more than that and the distractions become overwhelming. If you do, please let me know, in a comment to this post, how you did.